I see a glow from far away.

Lately, haven been doing pretty well. nothing much really happened. just enjoying my life with the mpaja members. Naz and sham most of the time. and a new friend made, Yun Wei. been out luring most of the time. but i still haven break my dry spell.

there was a moment of time, when i suddenly felt i couldn't take it no longer. i was feeling the tip of this sharp sword you are brandishing at me. i asked my closest friends. what should i do. they say. pick up a shield. defend yourself. but i say, disarm you. and bring you to my side. i couldn't set my mind right. i couldn't set my heart right. i was at an absolute lost.

sometimes, there are stuffs that i would rather not know. stuff that i would rather not feel the burden in my chest. but still, i know stuff. i know whats happening. i dun wish to believe them. but theres nothing to lie about. you told me the sun has set. you told me it will not rise at my side of the world. so the lies that you told me they were, may jus be true, or turn out to be.

for so long, i've been following the direction of my heart. it has pointed to where i am today. now that i am alone. still alone. its because of the arrow of my heart. if i would have to choose between your eyes and the sun, i would be one nocturnal son of a gun.

Jus
takemeawayfromthishorribleplace.